I am so sick

Of STC!!! I don't want to anymore!!!! I just wish I could be pg already!!! I hate knowing that we have struggled for over a year and half already and probably will continue to struggle! Why can't I get pregnant?? Why? Why does everyone else get PG and not Lee and I who WANT to be parents? I am so sick of all of it!!!!
I thought that I ovulated but I guess not. FF took away my CH so now it looks like I didn't ovulate!!! Ahhh!!!!!
I know I need to get this damn weight off but for some reason I can't get my act together and get the weight off!!! Ugh! Why do I always have to fail atit? I know I need to lose weight really bad but for some reason, I just fail! I don't get it!!!

I am so sick of failing at everything and not having things go right!!!! When will it be my time???